February 2012
27 posts
I am so fucking scared.
Also, ________.
Today is going to be the death of me. If it doesn’t end soon, I swear I’m going to tear out my fucking insides.
Wretched. Fucking. World.
Shivers.
I can’t shake this feeling. I just need to know you’re okay.
An interesting, and somewhat unsettling observation I’ve recently made about my peers is that too many of them are much too dependent on their [romantic] relationships to give them a sense of closure and contentment. This is not to say one shouldn’t be able to find closure in the arms of another, but it isn’t uncommon that a relationship can get to a point where one...
This is so typical of someone my age.
I feel as though I can’t do anything right today.
Día de San Valentín.
In regards to the holiday that’s technically over now, Kelsey cooked arguably the best homemade dinner I’ve ever eaten almost completely from scratch. Not only that, but she laid out the whole meal on a blanket on the floor of her bedroom, where we enjoyed a candlelit picnic together, sipping Sprite from champagne glasses while enjoying a mix of The National and Imogen Heap.
I can...
It’s deplorable how I lack so much self-discipline.
Shame on me.
Where did you get the privilege to pardon me?
There’s this kid in my English class who boasts about listening to bands like Evanescence and spends most of the class on Google Images browsing through various images of the grim reaper and such (one of which he made his laptop wallpaper this morning, much to the discomfort of the black girl sitting next to him). He’s also about a hundred pounds overweight and proudly sports the most...
This is how I’m spending my afternoon.
I’m currently in my 8:00 AM English class listening to a lecture (or rather, open discussion) on implementing meaning in one’s writing. It’s actually kind of funny how much this topic is resonating with me. While lately I have felt very detached from my own personal writing, I still see it as a thing that not only requires effort, but a level of passion that not everyone who...
WatchThis band was one of the first post-rock bands I ever listened to, which was in 2008, back when they used to play under the moniker Giant. They played in Atlanta tonight, and their set was absolutely breathtaking.
I’m breaking into a part of myself I’ve never uncovered before, but was somehow always partially aware of. I’m dismissing old atrocities and jealousies as being a part of who I was before and nothing more than that. Some memories are meant to stay in the past, and this is one of them. As a result of this, I’m lost in reveries I thought I rid myself of in high school, but...
January 2012
43 posts
You think you’re a victim, but you live as a...
This is not intended to be antagonistic,
but if you actually feel some sense of accomplishment, or anything synonymous as a result of gaining a significant number of followers on this stupid website by re-blogging thousands of posts that hold little or no relevance to you, your life might actually be more empty than I once thought. And believe me, I say this more out of concern for your well-being than animosity. Honestly, there’s...
My thoughts are constantly lost in the undertow. I need sleep.
I’m losing sleep, I’m losing friends I’ve got a love/hate love with the city I’m in I’ll count the hours, having just one wish If I’m doing fine, there’s no point to this
I want to regurgitate my youth straight onto a white canvas. I want to cut open my chest and spill every last drop of the person I used to be, the person I thought I was, the person I never wanted to become, and the person I aspire to be out on the floor of my room and let it all stain the carpet with the absurd blend of colors. I want to bleed out every last influence I’ve ever consumed so...
An age-old subject I'm still medtitating upon. →
A link for those who enjoy old literature and thoughts on God, the concept of religion, transcendence, existence, etc.
I realize that this is about a month late,...
I finally got around to compiling a list of my favorite albums from 2011.
Top ten, no particular order:
Radiohead - The King of Limbs
Bright Eyes - The People’s Key
Moving Mountains - Waves
O’brother - Garden Window
Manchester Orchestra - Simple Math
Thrice - Major/Minor
La Dispute - Wildlife
Defeater - Empty Days & Sleepless Nights
Touché Amoré - Parting The Sea Between...
I must say,
I do miss how this site used to be, about three and a half years ago. When it wasn’t a popularity contest and I didn’t feel so inclined to follow people I know out of courtesy for following me and the ask box wasn’t just a bad substitute for what Formspring failed to be and my dashboard was filled with people sharing their thoughts and ideas with words and the only reason anyone ever used the...
My mornings are always so.
I will become the sun.
So far, Verse, At the Drive-In, and Refused have all announced that they’re reuniting within the past month, and both As Cities Burn and The Receiving End of Sirens are dropping subtle hints that they may be doing the same. While Thrice is taking an indefinite hiatus, they’re still doing one last tour this year which I’m not going to miss for anything, I’ll finally be...
I WANT
TO BE
A
CHILD
AGAIN
I WANT
MY
WORLD // YOUTH // BLISS // IGNORANCE // NAIVETY
BACK
DAMMIT